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I think back to when I first knew you.. You’d play the baseline from Seven Nation Army in class.. I counted on it. I’d turn around and smile at you sometimes. I guess I didn’t know I liked you at first.. you had two different girlfriends throughout that time anyway. All I knew was that I liked being around you.. you were cute and funny, and I just wanted more of that! I invited you to my summer party with Dominique.. I was so happy you decided to come. Everyone was teasing me. They didn’t know you, but ohhh they asked. They knew something was up - probably before I did. i remember at one point we were sitting at the kitchen table across from each other..towards the end of the night. I realized I was with you almost the whole time. I didn’t have a Facebook then. I’d snoop around on Ashley’s, and I remember commenting on the picture of us fighting with the ice, just to have a reason to reach out to you. You left my stomach fluttering with butterflies many times throughout that following winter break.. I loved texting you all day every day. I frantically figured out how to use messaging from my computer when I had phone problems.. We were playing that __ or __ game we made up. The night after our first date, I slept with my scarf near me - the one you stole wore with your button up and skater shoes that night. 

New Years eve (s), our first baseball hangout at your house, Vampire Weekend.. so many more concerts, surprises, jokes, hours spent since then. It all seems so long ago. I’m ashamed that my memory has failed me so much, so soon…

It was different at the beginning as compared to the middle, and the middle to more recent - like last summer. I know that it’s much MORE different now.. but can’t we handle different? I hope that the people we have changed into are still compatible.. like the people we used to be were. I started typing the word “grown” instead of “changed” there.. but we’re not done growing. We’re never done growing. It’s funny how when I realize how fragile this is.. how vulnerable this can be… I can see, so clearly, that I want this, and I want you, one hundred percent. The confusion and gray seems so menial. Times like now, unfortunately this clarity is accompanied by the pit in my stomach opening up, and feeling like I’m gasping for air to hold onto you. 

I know that I’m not.. at least I hope that I know that you want to hold onto this too. Today turned out to be absolutely wonderful. Being near you, touching you, talking with you.. you’ll never know how much you do for me. I rely on you in so many ways.. I never saw anything like this coming. I love you, more than I know how to express. Please, please, please, hold on with me.